trapped in the hell of my own making

No escape

I know, but just try

but that takes so much energy

just pretend

then do it

Need to go outside

even the word can frighten me

An apple a day keeps the doctor away

need a break from myself

So this is more than fun for me. it’s distraction

I lost all kind of motivation

I am so far from being a “real” grown up

Shall I even try?

Somehow this can make me feel depressed

So, this choice shouldn’t be that hard

Because Fleury will never be the same since 2018

but maybe the other place is better choice

I want both